Bleah.

Something's happened to me.

I'm not sure what, exactly.

I was pursuing the path last night ... trying to find the way. But I fell asleep before I achieved anything approaching a major epihpany.

Had a series of strange dreams. Very disturbing, especially the one where I ran into my step-mother, and I think I was trying to achieve some form of petty victory over her ... but I couldn't out-petty her, and she kept laughing at me.

I know what it means, I think.

And I think it speaks pretty poorly of me that I had it.

But there's more, too. I don't understand it, but it feels like I'm throwing 'me' away to create a new persona within myself.

Confusing.

Must meditate on this again later.