Obsession of the Moment: Full Metal Alchemist.

It is not without its flaws.

It is not as good as Scrapped Princess.

But it's still pretty good.

So today was a horrible day at work. I resent my inept manager, and his inane demands.

It's amazing to watch the transformation from "One of the guys" to totally clueless manager.

Spent most of my day doing inventory, as the whole shipping manager blah blah blah.

Felt like a waste of time.

So draining. So pointless.

We're all just biding our time until the company goes under.

Highest bet in the pool says twelve more months.

Lowest says three.

Patience. Patience. School.

Caved on the no-spending-until-laptop is purchased (in no small part due to my mom's explanation about my birthday coming up etc).

Bought an optical mouse to replace my ailing (normal) mouse. It's cordless. Very handy.

After my last mouse took a tragic fall, I was able to coerce the sensors back into shape. Unfortunately, however, it would sometimes 'stick', and you'd need to lift the mouse up, carry it to the left side of the pad, and slide it all the way to the right about three times before it'd start tracking in that direction again. But up/down and left were fine.

This turned out to be problematic in combination with me trying to photoshop an image off of 4chan. I managed to do so, taking the four cards that were stuck together and editing out the lines (and filling in the gaps!) with reasonable results.

And then someone else posted it before I could get to it in 40 MB .png format. My thunder was a-stolen. Pity. I may take a crack at it again, just to see if I can do it, and it was kind of fun (should be easier with a mouse that's both optical AND works), and, hey, I like both Mogudan's style, and the Scrapped Princess characters.

....

Frustrated. Lost. Trying to keep up a brave face, but lacking in true confidence.

Lacking in direction and motivation.

Continously worried sick that my game is going to fail, and I will have dissapointed my friends. Or already have.

Eating poorly, and feeling sick regularly.

Lonely.

And, also, I'm really disliking Outwar. Maybe just ignore it, now. Requires serious dedication to win.

And you can't really play except to win, or you'll be crushed as someone else uses you for a stepping stone. (Hey, that's the way it's gotta be, but at the same time ... I got games I can win to play.)

Hmm.

Tsukihime OST.

....

Infinity.

That line is always there. Sometimes I fear I'll find that edge.

Sometimes I hope I do.

Don't have words anymore.

I used to think I did.

Maybe I was right.

I'm lost now.

Stuck.

Gotta find the way out.

Frustrated.

But underneath it all....

Hopeful.

Maybe not optimistic.

But hopeful.