I no longer have a job.

I was fired.

Because I don't have a car, ultimately. Truthfully, it was because I couldn't make the commute on Wednesday. But essentially it all boils down to the lack of a car costing me my job.

This is probably better for me.

But man.

It sure sucks. I don't want to be unemployed. -_- I want to be able to hold down a steady job.

Regardless. I've got a potential job spot (if CQC will have me) in May. I could look for work sooner.

But this last blow with dealing with transportation has got me to thinking. I need to pull myself out of the situation I'm in. I need to overcome my fear again, and start driving. I need a car.

Ultimately: I need money.

I'm broke, of course. So I need to assess the feasibility of the following:

1.) Getting a loan.

2.) Getting a car/paying my bills with said loan.

3.) Learning to drive.

This seems like an odd way of doing things, I imagine. But where I am in my life, I've got to improve my situation, and my range of options, by doing SOMETHING.

What that something is, is ... learning to drive. With a car, and the mobility that comes with it, I can get jobs beyond the reach of public transportation (which I'd like to support, but honestly just doesn't cut it, most of the time). I can take classes at Mission College, where I can get an actual degree, instead of settling for DeAnza. I can actually act like an adult instead of always having to depend on others to help me out in that capacity.

I want to be an adult.

I don't want to be a struggling child in an adult's world.