Ever have one of those days?

I woke up, and wasn't feeling well, so called in and went back to sleep. That was nice, and I felt a bit better when I woke up.

I cleaned my house. Over the last few days I've actually gotten it pretty clean. I'm happy about that....

But I'm cleaning to escape other issues, I think. I'm not happy. And I'm not sure why. :/

I canceled my World of Warcraft account today. Rez told me he was leaving the guild. I forget what he said.

I thought he meant that I sucked at gaming and leading the guild -- our guild is too small to do raids, and what would Rez want to do with a level 34 guild master when he's got two characters that are already higher level?

I forget where I was going with this. I'm depressed. Really depressed. I don't know why.

I have until the subscription runs out. That's in another month and a half or so.

And they let you renew if you change your mind later.

I mentioned it to the guild.

They reacted the same way. So I guess the entire thing is a meaningless guilt- trip on my part, and I didn't even realize it.

Probably best I don't play.

Can't lose control and accidentally snipe people if I'm not online.

Positive thinking.

I'll have more free time without WoW, I guess. I'd write fanfiction, but I don't think my fics are that great, and it's kind of sad that it's the only thing I'm good at.

Can't shake off the depression. I guess I'll meditate.